It Hurts...
When it rains, it pours. It's coming to August and work is kicking my ass - it's the busiest time of the year and I'm down a staff person and everyone that I have interviewed since having to repost the position sucks. I'm frustrated and disappointed.
I met a really great woman a few months ago and we started dating. She was unlike any woman I've known and really the complete opposite of what I was looking for in a woman. She was divorced with two kids which is normally a deal breaker for me. But wouldn't you know it, I ended up falling in love with her. Well, despite really getting along with each other and truly looking forward to seeing her each day that we were able to get together, there were some things that just weren't working for her with our relationship and she broke up with me a couple of weeks ago. Unfortunately, I have a lot of experience with being dumped but this one really hurts - I'd have to say more than all the others - and I've had some pretty painful breakups in the past. I guess what really sucks is that for the first time, I really saw a future with someone. I really thought that she was someone I could spend my life with and I really liked her kids on top of that. I've never wanted kids of my own (and pretty sure I still don't), but for the first and probably last time, the prospect of a family kind of excited me. We're still friends and I've met her for lunch and we've chatted here and there since the breakup, but this one is going to take a long time for me to get over. I've never enjoyed spending time with anyone the way I enjoyed spending time with her (and her kids). That's a tough thing to find in this world and I'm sad that it's something I've lost.
In other news, I got my motorcycle lisence last weekend. I took the basic rider course and passed to earn my endorsement. Learning to ride was a fantastic experience! Believe me, if you've never driven a manual transmission car before learning to ride a motorcycle, you'd have a tough time, but having that under my belt helped immensely. I love riding a motorcycle (I had never ridden before last Saturday). I still don't know if I'm going to buy a bike because I don't know if I can take on the financial drain of the payments and the insurance. On top of that, I don't like the idea of worrying my mom to death - she hates motorcycles and can't think of anything more dangerous than riding one - even if you practice safe motorcycling (which is the whole purpose behind the class - to make you safe so you can avoid accidents and stay alive). By the time I'm able to purchase a bike, I'll probably have lost interest in it! At the very least, I can say I know how to ride and hop on a bike and not look like an idiot!
I met a really great woman a few months ago and we started dating. She was unlike any woman I've known and really the complete opposite of what I was looking for in a woman. She was divorced with two kids which is normally a deal breaker for me. But wouldn't you know it, I ended up falling in love with her. Well, despite really getting along with each other and truly looking forward to seeing her each day that we were able to get together, there were some things that just weren't working for her with our relationship and she broke up with me a couple of weeks ago. Unfortunately, I have a lot of experience with being dumped but this one really hurts - I'd have to say more than all the others - and I've had some pretty painful breakups in the past. I guess what really sucks is that for the first time, I really saw a future with someone. I really thought that she was someone I could spend my life with and I really liked her kids on top of that. I've never wanted kids of my own (and pretty sure I still don't), but for the first and probably last time, the prospect of a family kind of excited me. We're still friends and I've met her for lunch and we've chatted here and there since the breakup, but this one is going to take a long time for me to get over. I've never enjoyed spending time with anyone the way I enjoyed spending time with her (and her kids). That's a tough thing to find in this world and I'm sad that it's something I've lost.
In other news, I got my motorcycle lisence last weekend. I took the basic rider course and passed to earn my endorsement. Learning to ride was a fantastic experience! Believe me, if you've never driven a manual transmission car before learning to ride a motorcycle, you'd have a tough time, but having that under my belt helped immensely. I love riding a motorcycle (I had never ridden before last Saturday). I still don't know if I'm going to buy a bike because I don't know if I can take on the financial drain of the payments and the insurance. On top of that, I don't like the idea of worrying my mom to death - she hates motorcycles and can't think of anything more dangerous than riding one - even if you practice safe motorcycling (which is the whole purpose behind the class - to make you safe so you can avoid accidents and stay alive). By the time I'm able to purchase a bike, I'll probably have lost interest in it! At the very least, I can say I know how to ride and hop on a bike and not look like an idiot!
posted by kmk at 2:49 PM
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